Everyday my child is fighting for his life. Each moment is about
providing whatever is necessary to extend his life.
John, at eleven months of age was diagnosed with a spinal muscular
disease that caused progressive weakness making respiratory infections
and other illnesses life threatening. We were told most of the children
died before age two; very few lived to age three. There was no cure,
and nothing to extend his life
He is now approaching his third birthday having battled many bouts
of pneumonia. I am determined the fatal diagnosis made by the doctors
over a year ago will not happen. There are many, many sleepless
nights, yet, inside my heart I keep hearing, Do not believe
they really dont know. The power of so many
fused emotions has become the catalytic fuel that keeps me questioning,
looking, finding solutions, moving forward in the midst of breakdowns
and constant responsibilities of family and life.
One night I could not sleep, my heart was heavy. I slipped out of
bed at about 1:30 in the morning with the weight of my heart leading
me. I went to the desk in the den and began to write. It was a childs
letter to God asking for some understanding. I was deeply pained
that we did not live in a caring and loving world. I did not understand
why we, in a global effort, did not devote ourselves to finding
cures for the illnesses that ravished humanity. Why were we not
making human beings a priority? I could not understand the dissention,
fighting, and suffering in the world. Why wasnt there one
leader in this world taking a stand with other leaders to address
global human issues, to stop this suffering and destruction?
I wrote pouring out my heartache, perplexed at our apathy, and
I realized the only way anything was ever going to happen was if
each individual made a conscious choice to serve humanity with love.
For myself at this point, my heart could have it no other way. If
I didnt serve with love, my spirit would die. Innately I knew
there was a higher state of living available for humanity based
on love. If we lived this love, the results would bring us into
to the very truth of our hearts and the sacredness of creation.
That night in 1974, I declared I would devote my life to discover
what opened the heart and soul of humanity, to find solutions to
cure our self-destructive world, and to find a way to have love
become the common language of humanity. I promised I would do my
part to end suffering in our world. I, a little bitty voice amongst
the roar of the world, armed with a powerful strength of conviction
as I battled for my sons life, took a stand from my heart
directly to the heart of God. I spoke what I so desperately wanted
the leaders of our world to be speaking.
My son is still alive, in and out of intensive care with respiratory
infections and the feared, pneumonia. My commitment remains strong
and active. I have sought knowledgeable people on spiritual journeys,
those committed to higher knowledge and service. I have been led
to books, spiritual paths, and transformational courses. So much
to discover. So much I didnt know. An expansion of knowledge
was happening yet it was only information until
One evening, I was curled in bed comfortably reading a book. I
read a passage and it said, I am paraphrasing, If God came
to you and told you what to do, you would do it. What you are doing
is exactly what God wants you to do. So, be happy. As I spoke
the last word, I immediately felt a massive pain in my head. It
felt as if a huge wooden hammer, like they have at the carnivals,
had smashed into my head.
For moments I saw stars and swirling colors. Then it felt like
the whole universe had opened up and all wisdom of existence was
downloaded. I saw and understood everything.
I was filled with a sense of wonder and love. Everything permeated
with radiating light. All was beautiful. I was laughing and weeping
simultaneously. Waves and waves and waves of love filled me. Besides
my laughter, a calming peace permeated. In one moment, my life changed.
I was experiencing an extraordinary reality of pure love and beauty.
I went into each of the childrens bedrooms and knelt close
to their faces realizing they were love manifested as I watched
both Lisa and John sleep in the beauty of innocence. My heart overflowed
with love for them. I went into the den where the white dove was
radiating pulsations of golden light with every coo
it sent my way. Beauty was everywhere. I opened the refrigerator,
reached for a carrot, took a bite and I was in ecstasy. The nourishment
of the love entered every cell of my body.
Days followed, I went on with life. Everyone recognized the change.
Family and friends commented on the peaceful aura of love I carried,
as well as the clarity and insightfulness from which I spoke. It
felt like my mind and heart had been perfectly cleaned out. I now
saw the unfiltered perfection of each moment. This experience lasted
for about 6 months, and then slowly I lost some of it. I had been
given a super duper preview of the possibility for humanity. It
was now part of my growth to consciously get myself back to that
bring others with me. As an experienced teacher,
the course of my journey was evident. I needed to discover what
I was to teach in order to get people to that place of pure love.
I am absorbing spiritual and transformational information. In curiosity
and wonder my thirst for knowledge is insatiable. My way of life
is changing. For now, Ive become a vegetarian. I am naturally
being directed towards cleansing and honoring my body and life.
I am moved to meditate, do yoga, and bringing consciousness and
order to my life and love to my relationships.
One lazy afternoon, Lisa was outside playing with the neighbors
and I was reading to my son, then almost six years old. He was propped
up with pillows sitting on an armchair with woof woof,
our white, fluffy toy poodle, next to him. I looked up at John at
one point of my reading, and I saw him. I really, really saw him.
I saw the richness of his soul looking at me through his big brown
eyes. To my shock, I awoke to the realization that inside that fragile
body my son was whole, perfect and okay. I had been blinded by his
life and death condition all these years. It was his body that had
the disease, not him.
Everyone, including me, was so busy trying to keep him alive. The
more we saw him this way, augmented by our sadness and concern,
the more he was repressed and imprisoned in his body. To my horror,
I realized my son had been suffering because no one saw him... no
one saw the perfectly okay John, that lived inside his
body I was now seeing.
It was sad what we had done, but I was exhilarated at the same
time. I recognized him for him, the real him!
The amazing miracle of the moment was that he saw me reaching beyond
his body to see the perfect and normal boy that lived beyond his
eyes, the windows of the soul.
Obviously, from that moment forward, my life changed in everyway,
especially on how I saw people and all life.
My sons life changed radically also. He stopped getting pneumonia
and going to intensive care. As a matter fact, he became a regular
kid in an electric wheelchair, who went to school to participate
in a very full life. There was no stopping him in life. Although
he had extreme challenges to face with his quadriplegic body, he
knew who he was, and he knew someone else knew also. He could now
live his normalcy as we supported his body giving it the right equipment
to assure him physical freedom.
I still carry the vision that lies inside my soul yearning to be
fulfilled. I had been working with thousands of people in transformative
seminars for 6 years for an organization. I learned so much and
contributed to so many people, yet I knew something was still missing.
In a recent insight, I was reaffirmed that deep suffering emanates
from the Soul when it becomes entrapped in the identity and limitations
put upon it by lifes circumstances. Confined, it has no way
to express its innate love, aliveness, and freedom to soar
John was imprisoned in our concept of him, he was not set free
until we changed the way we saw him. Trapped in similar kinds of
enculturation and decisions, people unknowingly act and present
themselves as someone they are not.
My vision was to assist people to free themselves of these trappings
so their true selves could experience freedom and fulfillment in
life. Even though I was strongly intended, I knew there was still
a key missing to have this happen and I was determined to find it.
I offered my first Self Love Program in April of 1986 in Austin,
Texas with my vision resting near my heart. In the midst of working
with a person in that first program, I kept saying spontaneously
to him, Look into your heart, listen to it. Just be very quiet,
relax and listen. Be patient. Wait. It will bubble up straight from
the heart. Listen from the core of your Being. Listen and focus.
After about 5 minutes of supporting him to listen, he said a few
words. Then like a password that opens a file, these words opened
his heart. Wave after wave of emotion started to release that had
been blocked. Afterwards, he glowed with clarity, discovery and
lightness. He stated he was so light and unburdened. He stated he
made discoveries beyond anything he had ever known. This major breakthrough
in this mans life took no more than 12 to 15 minutes total
from beginning to the enlightenment.
Well, there you go, my lifes work with the Heart had been
revealed. I could now fulfill my vision. I was in a state of exhilaration,
gratitude and joy. With every passing year I work with the Heart,
the more I master the work. The Heart in union with the Soul is
magnificent. I discovered that the Heart not only cleared peoples
lives, its true purpose was to ongoing guide and direct people
in their life to continually grow in love, wisdom and to higher
states. In the years and programs that followed, it was confirmed,
peoples lives and Hearts were opened, transformed, enriched,
spirited beyond expectations and set free to be themselves. The
Heart is the gift of love that will bring humanity together! Afterall,
who alive on this planet doesnt have a Heart?
My son John is now almost thirty-four years of age. He is a college
graduate, screenwriter and occasional filmmaker living independently
with an attendant and friend in Burbank, California with a lifetime
of incredible experiences under his belt. His presence, his work,
and his life has touched and inspired thousands. In retrospect,
I am so happy I believed and followed the voice of my Heart and
not the words of a fatal diagnosis. My Heart was right when it said,
Do not believe them
they do not know. I have discovered
and learned so much about the perfection of the eternal Soul, about
love, and the wonder of the Heart in all theses years. Most especially
I have learned how to consistently access this Heart knowledge and
the amazing guidance and direction it offers in life.
My daughter Lisa is married and lives happily with her adored husband
and 3 children in Mill Valley, Ca. She too lives a life of service
touching many lives. She is a major player on a team putting out
an incredible magazine whose purpose is to bring information on
creating the best life possible for all its readers.
As for Woof Woof and the dove, they have now moved on
to doggie and bird heaven having made their contribution of love
to our family.
As for myself, I continue to bring the Heart, Soul, and my love
to thousands of individuals, couples, and groups, anywhere and everywhere.
To this day, I never fail to be enriched, and awed by life and by
witnessing the Heart and love in action. I am a happy, wise, loving
woman who lives and works in heaven on earth surrounded by magnificent,
openhearted people full of love and light. As for my vision, it
now has a life of its own. I simply follow the directions
of the unending love it represents.
Programs of the Heart became incorporated in 1991. We are now offering
programs and Phone Conferences Course in the United States, Australia
and the English speaking world. People are presently being trained
to teach and lead courses with the intention to bring the opportunity
of the Heart to all parts of the world.
From my Heart and Soul to you in love and oneness.
Bio: Diana Vela, founder and director of Programs of the Heart,
Inc. in America, has in the last 20 years, taught thousands of people
to live a magnificent life from the Heart. www.programsoftheheart.com
All rights reserved: Diana Vela, 2005